thank you

for all of the kind happy 30 wishes.

it was a day i had been dreading almost? i don't know why. i went back and forth between embracing aging and then wanting to be 20 something for ever. it came in like a lamb and out like a lion. little elles coming in and tugging my arm to the hiding place her card was as soon as her eyes saw morning light. she was so proud to show me the scribbles of love. bud "e" had written my name atop a beautiful portrait of yours truly. "winds of love" had written in robot writing about how much we love each other. the red head had a lovely food processor waiting on the bar for his cooking wife. it had a note on it to be ready for a lunch date with him. i knew that took a lot of planning and work on his part as it was a surgery day. that is a huge day for him and near impossible to get out of.

we went to a lovely italian bistro, Zucca, which turned out to be my last visit. as we were headed home, the stomach bug that left the girls in peril in days past, had bud"e" and i in its grips for the remainder of the birthday. i have now successfully had some fluid and a few crackers without incident. although the most violent flu i have ever had, certainly a birthday we will never ever forget. thanks to all the kindness that was brought to my house as i kneeled to the porcelain sculpture all night. i think getting rid of lunch took around 30 times and the best birthday present of all was getting on the scale around 1 o clock this morning to discover i had lost 8 pounds since that morning. (i have a weird ocd about weighing myself everyday). anywho. what more could a girl ask for on her birthday?

i woke up this morning to a house full of popcorn, flowers, cookies, and a plethora of kind cards that had been dropped off as i was begging for mercy. the thoughts made it lovely! so thank you thank you, and here's to hoping i can retain at least one meal today......